Like, Omg, what do we have here?

I have no idea what brought me back here...but here I am. *shrugs* And I still have nothing to say really. Actually tons to say and no clue how to start it all of, or how to finish it. Hmmmm. What do I do? I guess if anyone's out there listening, lemmie know.
  • Current Music
    Jeffery Gaines - In your eyes

I really didn't die guys.

*mwhahahahaha* Here I am. The pirates finally let me go. Oh my, I am silly.

No really...I'll be serious. I went through this totally depressing "no one talk to me for days and I will smoke away all my troubles" phase for a week or so. But, I am baaaaack. And feeling pretty good. *nods* I go through stuff like this a lot. It's just how I am, I am a cancer.

I am going to stay silent about my little phase and all of the details of it, cause rehashing something that seems delt with is not a good idea. Specially for me. I have missed you guys though. *hehe* I wish I was more like you all, and could use this thing more in a theraputic way, but for some reason I can't get the swing of that. I guess I just don't see people actually caring enough about me to read all the horrid things going on in my life...or even the good ones for that matter.

Anyways, I am back, and I am going to try and keep all my little angels a little bit more informed. :)

I missed you sillies. *mmmwah*

Lachrymatoryyyyyy I wanna talk to you.
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    Queens Bridge Finest - Ooochie Wally

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I wish I wrote this...
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How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the oceans shapeless form.
Water's getting harder to tred. With these waves crashing over my head.

If I could just see you, everything would be alright. If I could see you, this darkness would turn to light. And I, would walk on water, and you would catch me, if I fall. And I, would get lost into your eyes, and everything would be alright.

Know you didn't bring me out to drown, so why am I ten feet under and upside down. Barely surviving has become my purpose, because I am so used to living underneath the surface.

If I could just see you, everything would be alright. If I could see you, this darkness would turn to light. And I, would walk on water, and you would catch me, if I fall. And I, would get lost into your eyes, and everything would be alright.
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It's so simple. But God. *heh* Why am I so hopeless?
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    Blyss - Storm

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So, I so wanna go see Hannibal tonight. I am really excited. Leave it to me to be excited about a total psycho movie. *hah*
It looks so creepy. Anyways, I don't get off work until 6:00 tonight so I bet I won't be able to get tickets in time and all the damn shows will sell out. Who knows. If this movie is dumb, I am gonna be so disapointed.

I have nothing else to write about right now. Going back to work sucks.
  • Current Music
    Linkin Park - Pushing me Away

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Today I loathe...

-My Job
-The movie "Me, myself, and Irene"
-Being put off by Curtis
-Feeling sick to my tummy all day long
-bigbobs.com
-Cranberry juice
-TV
-My lack of vicodin
-Always missing Lachrymatory on ICQ.

Today I love...

-Curtis (even though he's being a dick today)
-Blue Powerade
-My bed
-My fish

The end.
  • Current Music
    Radiohead - Blow Out

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Long blurry weekend. Early Morning tomorow. I have neglected everyone, and my journal. I am not impressed with myself. More tomorow after work.
  • Current Music
    Nelly - St. Louis

I really wish hospital gowns closed in the back.

Okay, update. I cleaned Petey's bowl last night. He's so happy...he's swimmin' all around.

I had to go to the hospital around like 2:00 am, it was yucky. I have been having real bad abdominal pain and throwing up and stuff for a few weeks now. My doctor was telling me I had an ulcer, but I went to the Emergency room last night, turns out I have gal stones. Gross. I am waaaay too young for gal stones. But, the emergency doctor told me that it happens to most women with fair skin, who have it in their gene pool. Practically every woman I know of in my family has had theirs removed. It's the most horrible pain I have ever felt in my life. I can't wait to get it out of there. Surgery will be in less than a few weeks...I have never had major surgery before. I am scared. And I reaaaaallllly don't want to have any scars on my tummy. I am totally superficial like that I guess...oh well, I know in the long run I will be so happy the pain is over.
My doctor was sorta cute last night, and he told me I had a pretty smile. *swoons* *hehe*

Mike, I actually thought of you last night after my pains had settled down and I was laying there, I was like "Haha, he's awake and at a hospital too." Buuuut, I am sure you were having a better time than I was.

Anyways, I am gonna go take another nap, maybe get up in a while and get some food, hopefully I'll be able to hold it down without any problems. *nods* I bet you all hate hearing about my medical problems, I promise I'll be back to the normal, snotty me soon. Yay!
  • Current Music
    Jude - I do